Hold On

If you compared my life to a play structure,
I would stand there, feet swinging
holding on tight to the monkey bars
too afraid to even think about letting go
since I hold on tight to my pass

I hold on the the memories
of packing boxes and leaving my one true home
I was excited at the time but it took me to be gone
to finally realize how much I truly left behind

I hold on to how scared I was coming into highschool
scared to walk the halls and find my class rooms
anticipating that first bell that was going to ring soon

I hold on to my little princess
who was sadly taken away from me
little cousin I'm still holding on to you
and I love you till my death Mi'Arre

I hold on to my countless number of cries
that never seem to end
but I constantly continue to wipe my eyes
and always make amends

I try to tune my life out with the radio
but I keep hearing the same songs
so I tune the music out and i hold on
to these painful memories
of broken families
fussing and arguing
seems to always get to me

so I cry

but only at night when no one else can hear me
so I can stay being the least of everyone elses worries

I break my neck everyday trying to make others happy
and sadly at the end of the day I still feel like I've done wrong
I appreciate the people who gladly encourage me to be strong

I try to keep it pushing
but I find it hard to move on
I cant detach myself from the past
so I guess for now I'll hold on.

I think it's cute

I think it's cute when a dude holds his girl, not because she wants him to, because he wants to.


I think it's cute when a couple does the stupidest things together and/or have inside jokes with each other that no one else understands.

I think it's cute when a guy teaches his girl how to play video games just so they can play together.

I think it's cute when a couple supports each other when no one else does.

I think it's cute when a couple argues but no one wants to leave & they both really want to say I love you.

I think it's cute when a girl sleeps in her boyfriends shirt.

I think it's cute when a couples play fights.

I think it's cute when a couple randomly tell each other they miss or love each other.

Random Blog : Thoughts of today.! (1-16-10)

Currently listening to music so I"m going to keep putting in what songs I"m listening to throughout the blog. :)

Song #1: Chris Brown- I wanna be

Ok so, first off I feel really bad about what happened to the people in Haiti and my heart really goes out to them. I have like no money right now so the fact that I dont hae anything to give eats away at me. I have a lot of clothes that I don't need, my mom and little brother do too so I would love to donate them if I could I just dont know how, If anyone knows how let me know on here or twitter. www.twitter.com/PrettyYoungPoet

Song#2: Beyonce - Halo

Next, I've been doing ok as far as reading and writing everynight but I'll be honest I havent been doing it every single night! I"m performing at the poetry reading at my school again and I'm a little more confident about this one but still nervous. :) As soon as I complete another poem I'll share it with you guys.

Song#3 Sammie - Twitter Freak

January 5th made a year since I ate any meat (not including seafood). So on January 8th I ate a burger and I really missed meat before then but it wasn't anything special. I kind of feel like I could have done longer without it. Well, what's done is done :-\ that's all for now

Song#4- Melonie Fiona - It kills me

goodbye

I remember you stared at her with this lustful look in your eyes
but you're a guy so I let that fly
cause I knew when we got home
I was yours and you were mine

but I guess over time
I ignored the signs
blinders covered my eyes
now you're going to wish you stayed home that night

I took off from work a little early
had your favorite meal all done and ready
thinking you would be home momentarily
I guess you fooled me

but I just kept busy
and when you walked in at a quarter to three
I acted like it didnt faze me
greeting you with a "hey baby"

calmly ran the shower water
and washed you to get off all off her
and for the first time you were knocked out cold
I guess she did something I never done before

I wonder what you reaction was whrn you woke up alone

last night was last night the past as I call it
and we're not going to work it out so please stop calling
so have no hopes of us being together like we were
and when you want some dont hesitate to call...her

cause I'll never forget how you stared at her
with this lustful look in your eyes
the next time I look at you
I'll be saying goodbye

Forget

We weren't even together
and hadn't had our first kiss
you were just that easy
to fall in love with

the memories of you
I tried to erase it

I deleted your number
and both ringtones I gave you
I deleted your name out my call log
and all the text messages too

but I have your number by memory
and both the songs on a cd
I may have forgotten the dates and times
but I remember the conersations you had with me
and I still get the urge to text you goodnight before I go to sleep

it's like I erased you out of my life
but the only exception was my mind
no matter how hard I try

I wont ever be able to erase it
I dont want to think about how it might be her you fall in love with
right about now I just want to be over it
and to p.be honest with you I just want to forget

Second Nature

Some people hae to breath to keep living
I just have to love you
some may call me a fool
cause an unmutual scenerio might be true
but no thought makes me happier than thinking of you

Good days or bad days a smile comes on my face
when I think about us being together one day

But you have a relationship of your own
so me and you must be postponed
and I'm alone but I can"t move on

cause loving you comes like second nature to me
so I'll just sit here and wait patiently
hopefully one day we could be together like it should be
you and me

I remember well the day we met
I neer told anyone I was attracted
afterall we met through my bestfriend
and once before you were her man

and I try not to speak of it
but man it's hard not to think of it
you two together
 before either of you knew I exist

you may not care and she may not either
but the thought of that stick with me like a doctor and a needle
piercing me deeply as that thought repeats
over and over in my head like a scratched cd

but anyways aside from secret attraction
you said I was plain I said we would never happen
but I guess along the way love became a reaction
of our conersations and time together much to my satisfaction

it's more than love it's a gravitational pull to you
just like a werewolf I imprinted on you
and it's true
love that I found at once

and it comes like second nature to me
so I'll just sit and wait patiently
cause one day maybe we could be together like it should be
you and me

you can rip my heart right out of my bare skin
and stomp it into the cement
up until that last beat and the last breath I take in
it's the love I have for you over powering

just like the little engine that thought he could
love you like this I never thought I would

If I love you like this while you're with her
imagine how I can love you while you're with me
see we could be

unstoppable and everlasting
forever? we can move past that
right now and next lifetime
as long as I'm with you I'll have that

love that comes like second nature to me
but I'll just sit and wait patiently
praying that one day we could be
together like it should be
you and me!

New Years Resolution Poem

From this point on

I’m living life with no regrets
Living life to the fullest
Living life with no more asking “why me”

Cause when I get through hard times
Every breath after I am stronger

The pain He has in store for me
wont end until my dying day
I pray that day is far away
But in this world is hard to say

and I’m at that point now
where no one can tell me a thing
cause I already heard it before
and felt the pain of almost everything

It’s time for me to speak up
And everyone sits back and listens
The words rolling off my tounge
Are the words everyone has been missing

By now you should be sick
Of not acknowledging this ignorance
We hear it and we speak it
But next year we need to stop it

And stop speaking on
What others should do
Just worry about you
And care about the few
That helped you make it this far
Because they deserve a thank you

You don’t have to tell anyone
How much you love your hater
Or how they’re making you famous
If you’re not well known
Start learning and exploring
And leave the haters alone

I appreciate all I have
And the things I’m yet to get
Another year is over
But my journey’s no where completed yet

Unstoppable

I’m a solider in the army

Fighting for life
From the moment I open my eyes
To when I close them at night

I take burdens of my shoulders
To get bricks thrown at my face
But I cant stop now
I have to finish my race

No matter what
I have to come in first place
Because I built the tracks,
The field and everybase

I’m in the process of making roadways
With a side of directions
All for living life now
Because I can go back and make corrections

Making mistakes is part of reality
Fixing every error isn’t actuality
Though I may want to it’s just not possible
It’s a life long journey, my race is unstoppable .

Forgotten

I forgotten how it feels

To have a hand to hold on to,
So when you come around
I don’t know what to do

I forgot how it feels
To hear that special ringtone
But I constantly find myself
waiting up by the phone

I forgot how it feels
To be held in someone’s arms
Or by their side in their jacket
And that feeling of being warm

I want to relive those moments
When I was on cloud nine
I will wait for the day
You become mine

First Date With True Love

Date number one

You had me
Sitting quietly
With no words

Rain drops were falling
And I noticed
So I grabbed you closely
And you kissed my lips

Then you called
when we left each other’s presence
“do you know what happened tonight”
You asked me
“we kissed in the rain” I said
Confused on why you asked
“more than that” you said
I just sat in silence

“tonight I fell in love with you”
I blushed from ear to ear
But you couldn’t tell
Weird enough, I felt the same way

“I love you too”
Was all I could think of
Who would have thought
On this very first date
You and I had found true love

Connection

As I open a book I see my connection to life


And then,
I begin to listen
To with my soul within is telling me
As I grab my pen
While my inner soul reflects on what my eyes see,
Then turns around an takes a glimpse at me
And thinks about what my slef reflection can be

I continue to write
From now until the dark night
Take a break,
Then continue until the morning light
And if the speed is constant I just might

Finish my first chapter
Since that’s the goal I’m after
Lines to pages,
Pages to chapters,
Chapters to books,
Books to series
All written by the soul within me.