Shadow of Lies

So I'm walking down the street

and it's a slight breeze

so I look to the shadow on the side of me.

I check my hair and I'm good.

So I'm thinking my hair is ok and not messed up

but when my sister hands me the brush

I already know what's up!

And all this may seem irrelevant

but the truth is, people lie like shadows.

Or vice versa but so what

either way they both lie to us.

The thing that really gets to me is

when the liar is someone you're cool with.

I'm thinking everything all good with you

like you were telling the truth

but you lied to me like a shadow on the street would do!

My shadow showed me that my hair looks fine

and I'm alright but really it just lied.

But ya'll keep going with ya'll shadow of lies

I just know I won't lie to me

I'm 5'1 not 5'3

and I don't sing or rap I write poetry!

But that's just me

You're shadow of lies won't defeat me

I'll keep living with every bit of ease,

but lying is just so ugly!

I mean, you can put on an outfit and just be bad.

Still at the end of the day you gon be mad

cause lying ruined the outfit you had

I send a special thankyou to everyone who's lied to me

you protected me

and help me build my guard for the next liar I meet.

But karma..karma should be a liar's worst enemy

and you can take it from me

cause I've witnessed and experienced

so yeah I'm a little bit of a hypocrite

cause I tell white lies

but lets face it, the truth can be ugly too sometimes!

Karma goes around and comes around

and it hurts when it hits you

and at the end of the day you're going to wish you told the truth.

And I'm not specifically speaking to any of you

but here's what liars should do

step out the shadow of lies into the truth of light

and see where that takes you!

Forever and a day

Me and him were running errands one evening
and we stopped at a Walgreen's
cause nature was calling me.
When I was done, I came out and he smiled at me
and, I don't know, I guess that got to me.
He waited for me. Patiently, unselfishly
something that not everyone does
and because of that I know for a fact
that with him my heart will always stay intact.
It won't fall apart or break into pieces
and I know this cause he is here to stay
but not for long, just  forever and a day !

My Fishys ! :)

Whew ! It took me forever to put a frame around these 10 pics so I hope all of you enjoy them ! These fish were a gift from my dad to me and my brother . I was doing some major cleaning when he brought everything to the house so it was nice to stop for a minute and setup the fish tank with them ! :) It was the first time in a long time this house felt like a home to me so I'm really going to cherish these fish ! Enjoy the pictures !

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The last one is my favorite one !

SLz CATS

For one...

Since I can't seem to stop talking about it-

I signed up for SLz's poetry reading!

I'm nervous and excited about it.

It's next Tuesday so if you can,

come hear me recite poetry for the first time!

Two..

Black Student Union-

We had our first meeting today.

If you weren't there- BE THERE NEXT TIME

[Wednesday November 4th]

We're working on fundraisers :)

We'll I guess that's all for now!

(post script) You don't have to be black to

join BSU! Everyone come! :)

Quote of the Day :)

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that
other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson

Need help.

I'm brainstorming and starting to write my first script! It's a love story; I don't want to give a lot away but I do need help.

What are some sweet things that boys say to girls? Or do for girls?
What are some rude things boys say to girls? Or do to girls?

How do you get over someone you really like?

If you like your best friend but don't want to ruin the friendship you guys have now what would you do?

Can you tell me you answers to these questions. Thanks!
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Democracy

So in World History (my most boring class) we're learning about forms of government. Today I read about a guy named John Locke who believed in Direct Democracy. Me personally I like Representative Democracy. Why? Because we still have a voice and we have someone to represent that vote. This may not be in best interest to the people who lose due to minority but it's more organized than a Direct Democracy.

Any who the reason I'm writing this is because we have a Representative Democracy right now and I feel like we need to take full advantage of that. I think if each of our cities come together and create something positive & powerful we could benefit from having a Direct Democracy.

I'll pay more attention in class any share the news with you! Thanks for reading!
-PrettyYoungPoet

Just In Case I haven't finished.

I just told everyone on twitter that I'm posting a blog. This is true! I won't tell what it's about but I'll have it on here shortly. Just in case I'm not finished when you look on here this is a reminder that a blog is coming so hold tight! Thanks! -PrettyYoungPoet

Thoughts of the day...

Tomorrow's friday & that means I survived 2 weeks of sophmore year. The first dance is tomorrow so I'll be there from 7-10.

18 more days till September 21st, 2009! I'll be 15 years young that day.Not exactly sure what I'm doing for my birthday but I'll figure it out.

Thank you so much for the continued support. I want to better myself as a writer so I'm going to be reading a lot of poetry maybe next week. Breaking Dawn is slowing me down but I'll get to it. I want to put more poems on here but sadly I haven't been writing. Sorry about that. More to come soon.

Follow me on twitter! :) Love ya! TTFN.

My Twilight

are you familiar with the fomous book series twilight?
if not let me tell you about it.
you see Edward is the love of Bella's life
and Jacob's the bestfriend that makes everything alright.

Edward left her.
Jacob held her.
But in the end it was Edward she picked.

I'm stuck in that situation.
I have to make a choice
but right now I'm not sure which.

My Edward Cullen is all I could ask for
and no doubt about it I love him more
but there's something about Jacob I can't ignore
after all he is my best friend.

Jacob cares for me and he listens
One of the most loving people living
and I'm not saying that Edward isn't
because I do want to be with him.

I don't even think confused describes what I am
I'm stuck between my love & my bestfriend.

No music?

New music.
where would the world be with no music?
we speak words of pain
& forget people people have to go through it
no music.
means words stay confined inside you cant even hum to it.
new music, no music, old music
got that certain kind of beat to it
make you wannaget up, electric slide, and move your feet to it.
Soul music.
Got a legend or connection that make you always wanna go to it.
Dream music.
Pay attention to the lyrics and you sing to it.
All music should have a meaning and a beat to it.
Youth music.
Sometimes have a specific dance to it.
And who knew it that music
would go from old music to new music
soul music to youth music
and I appreciate that we never had NO MUSIC.

Insanity!

Show no sympathy
for my insanity
it is indeed
a part of me.

Some mat call it strange
my mind's deranged
love and pain
I am insane

Need my poetry, I'm addicted
Writing down my every conflict
word for word I have to have it
though this poem does not make sense!


haha; i just wanted to write a poem called
"insanity" and this is what I got :-\

thankyou !

More people follow me on twitter & more people are following me on here so thank you EVERYONE! School juast started so I'll only blog to say thankyou, show pictures, and ofcourse my poetry! I'm going to post two more poems right now so I hope you enjoy!
Peace, Love, and Poetry!

-Akialah

Dedicated to Pac

The realist rapper I ever known is Tupac
till this day I still don't know why he had to get shot.
The things he tried to stop is still going on.
Things he wanted to stop he spit the lyrics in his songs.

I know you seen him all gangsta in above the rim
but some powerful words in this world were quoted by him.
Like, "they say that it's the white man I should fear
but it's that black people doing all the killing out here."

It might sound harsh but you know it's the truth.
No other rapper can say that quite like Pac do.
It's still violence in the streets,
kids hiding under their sheets.

Cause they hear them gunshots,
around the corner on the block,
outside of the churches,
what we doing ain't working

People want to pop their collars and they want to stay fly,
but we still got these questions and we still don't know why
we kill these sisters and brothers and all the little cousins.
any you steady gettin mad when we askin where they love is!

Mi'Arre Syni Baxter

Love is not lost when a loved one passed on
it's okay to cry when you're trying stay strong
Keyshia Cole said, "Love never knew what I was missing"
But I'm missing you and your slobbery kisses.

Your beautiful smile that brightened up my day
and how you held out your arms when I came your way
I will shed a few tears here and now,
But I know you're still here some way some how.

I cherish those days when I watched you for a while
when we laughed and played had fun and smiled.
So this is my good-bye until we meet again,
until that day rest peacefully in heaven.


This poem is about my little cousin that died a few years ago. She hadn't even hit one years old. She was my little angel on Earth and I dearly miss her. I wrote this poem for the obituary

Definition

Strong affection, warm attachment, beloved one
What is the definition of love?

Love is...
A special bond,
or connection between two people.

Love is...
What you mean to each other
and how much you care.

Love is...
A whirlwind
of smiles, laughs, and cries

Love is...
a life pathway of happiness

So nevermind what the dictionary says
love has no definition.

No More Light

Let the light from our love dim
till there is no more
like the stem of a candle burning
till it reaches the core

Like Christmas light in June
unplugged and stored away
or a light bulb that has blownout
and you're forced to throw it away

This love no longer gleams
and it no longer shines
this love is no longer yours
and is no longer mines

So I sit here writing this poem
thinking about what could've been
this love that never happened
will never happen again

I love you too

hand and hand
me and you
just like we were
months ago

kissing in the rain
caused us to fall in love
and we're still together
and going strong

I asked you
"what do you want for Christmas"
you said
"I want it to rain"

I laughed and asked you
"why"
you said
"so I can fall in love with you again"

You hold my heart
carefully in your hands
and I have no fear
of you hurting me

There was nothing I could do
but hold you close to me
and whisper in you ear
"I love you too"

Puppy Love

What does it mean when you like someone
but you're not sure if you love them
and every single moment
you find yourself thinking of them.

there's this thing called puppy love
it gives you butterflies
and you can't control how
it makes you crazy inside.

it's obvious you care
but don't take it too far
these thing don't always last
and puppy heartbreak can be hard.

do I tell them I love them?
this is crazy and unheard of!
should I just walk away from
this thing called puppy love.

Force

You can force yourself to refrain,
you can force yourself to shove,
you can force yourself to pain,
but can you force yourself to love?

Can you force youself to love
without feeling remorse?
To adore and care, without being part of,
a love that will eventually fall off course.

could a love so true
be forced together?
Will it eventually fall through?
Or will it continue to get better?

Best Friends

Secret kisses,
long conversations,
I miss you's and I love you's too.
best friends are what they call us.

Holding back in the begining,
us being together was forbidden,
at least that's what we thought
cause best friends are what they call us.

That's how we started, just best friends,
now we're riding it out till the end,
but for now it stays between us
cause best friends are what they call us.

Let's Talk About Us

Want to complain 'bout how the government keep boostin' the gas prices us,
but lets talk about us.

Neither one of us respects each other anymore,
and we can't work together that's why we still living poor.
Instead we bring each other to the white gates
'cause at every event you gotta come with the Ak
so yeah let's talk about us.

Selling drugs to the kids is that the way life goes?
Prostitutes on the street as young as 12 years old.
Pergnant at 13 with no clue who the daddy could be
died young and seen nothing outside of the streets.

Sometimes you want to think about living large
and everyday pullin up in a different car
then you take a trip back to reality
make paper and bring it home to the family.

When night falls you got to cry yourself to sleep
cause you're sick of living life in poverty.
But, let's talk about us.

Creativity

My creativity.
My creativity is unique like a snowflake.
My poem is a complex leaf.
I am a lioness, queen of the jungle.
You are a pond, and I am a lilly pad

This was an assignment I had to do in the 9th grade.

Live, Laugh, Love

Live today like it's your last
have fun and take chances.
Let the past be the past
move on without second glances.

Laugh till tears roll out your eyes
and cherish every little thing.
Enjoy every moment of life
and everything they bring.

Love those who love you too
and forgive those who hurt you.
Create happiness with everything above.
Life seems so much easier when you live laugh love.

Perfection

Perfection,
exist in imagination.
We dream of perfection
then wake up to reality.

Perfection,
doesn't exist in reality/
Hard work leads to greatness
but never perfection.

Have you ever dreamt the perfect fantasy?
Sucks that it was just a dream.
Your own little moment
in the land of perfection.

Perfection,
isn't shown in my reflection.

Perfection,
isn't shown in love's affection.

We work for perfection
and never achieve it
cause perfection only exist
in our imagination.

Sweetest Death

Slowly.
Softly.
Surely.
It's killing me.
You're killing me.
I'm dying.
The sweetest death.

Your touch.
Your kiss.
Your voice.
Your scent.
Gives me a smile
that never fades away.
Leaving me breathless.
It's happening.

Slowly.
Softly.
Surely.
It's killing me.
You're killing me.
I'm dying.
The sweetest death.

No More Racism

We wnt through trials of abuse and neglect,
many things we'll never forget.
We still came out with heads held high,
isn't it time we get some respect?

Can't believe that racism dragged on this long,
and no one cares to fix what's wrong.
It may take a while to end the problem,
but one day we must all get along.

When history repeats, it's almost like a sequel,
and yet there are still racist people.
The thought of racism is just insane,
when are people going to realize that we're all equal?

We should support each other when things get hard,
But instead you choose to disreguard,
The people who are here for you to love,
But still you keep your heart in a guard.

So let judgement fly like winter wind,
and find someone new to befriend,
and after the first step of change,
let racism gradually descend.

My Words

Emotions let out with no words
because my words are trapped inside me.

Anger and sadness built up inside,
sometimes make a tear fall, calmly I cry
but still my words are trapped inside me.

Frustration and confusion bring misunderstandings to my life,
chaos surpasses my joy,
yet my words are trapped inside me.

Trust in a friend,
friend being the who catches my tears when they fall,
there for support, a person I should be able to speak my mind to,
but nevertheless my words are trapped inside me.

Through my growth from a child that cries when she falls down
to where I am now, inspite of everything,
my words are trapped inside me.

Support! + Follow me on Twitter

I've finally decided to publish my poetry. Maybe it's beacuse the people on twitter been pumping my head that I'm a good writer. LOL. Well I really need this continued support I really appreciate it! So I'm going to post some poems right now so check them out! Thanks! Peace, Love, and Poetry! P.S. that's what I decided to call my book! =) Follow me on twitter! www.twitter.com/love_my_music

My First Love

my very first love.
moving to the sound of you
ever since all I could do
was bob my head.
every beat I hear
I'm moving to it
it doesn't feel right
if you're not loud in my ear
with you, no problems exist
only a bridge, a chorus, and verses
let me hear it, let me love it
got to love music!

Vincent

Just the sight of you
puts a smile on my face
I love you cousin

This is a little haiku I wrote for my little cousin! He lives with his grandma and he came out here today to visit and I love being around him! He's my source of happiness!

Sunset

If the sun set one day and never rose again and you knew it was going to happen would you tell anyone?

who would you tell?
would you watch the sun rise that morning?
who would you spend your last day in the sun with?
what would you want to do your last day in the sun?
would you watch the sun set?
how would you feel after the sun set?
now just imagine if you didn't know it was going to happen.
the sun would just set and never rise again.

I wrote this beacuse I watched the sun rise a few times this summer and it was actually really interesting and I feel that it gave me a positive outlook on the rest of the day.

Mi' Corazon!

She's my rock!
You hurt her and I'll hurt you.
That simple statement
holds so much truth.

She brought me in this world,
and I'll take you out for her.
Real anger comes out of me
when she gets hurt.

She held me close
when she heard my cries.
Some wishfor a mother
as special as mine.

The ear to listen,
and shoulder to lean on,
she gives it to
and expects nothing in return.

I could talk for hours about her
but I'm pretty much done.
I just wanted to let you know
how much I love my mom.

The name of this is "Mi' Corazon" because that's what I call my mom. For those who don't know it means my heart in spanish and that's exactly what she is. My mother is my heart!

Love these song.. check them out

Michael Jackson Tribute Video :I'll Be There Acapella
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IEm8UsF--cc

Who's loving you - Jackson Five
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ane6VJGlIMs

Wyclef Jean ft. Claudette Ortiz
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLkWBOS0Fns

July 7, 2009 (Day of Michael Jackson's Memorial)

As soon as I woke up this morning I walked in the living room and my mom, little cousin, and uncle were watching the Michael Jackson Memorial. I sat down and did NOT get up until it was over. It was very touching and entertaining. I was strong though I only cried once, when Paris talked at the end. My point of this is that Michael Jackson was a phenomenal guy, I didn't have the honor of seeing him in person but I feel like I've known him my whole life. I feel that way because he inspired me and even my peers even though we may not realize it. I was dancing like Mike today and realized it was just like a dance we started doing a few months ago out here in the bay area. I don't think whoever made it up realized that but it's the effect Michael had on EVERYONE!

k i n g of POP

June 25, 2009 we lost one of the greatest! Michael Jackson died due to cardiac arrest. It was very sad. I love dancing and he was the best he influenced so many people including myself. After I heard about him passing I listened to one of my favorite songs by him "Butterflies" and it almost had me in tears. Then thats when I decided to celebrate his life and his legend like never before. Michael stays in my heart and the hearts of many others. Love you Mike! Rest In Paradise!

My Inspiration.

When Rev Run sends his 'Daily Word' to Global Grind I get them sent to my email. He always has something positive to say and it really inspires me! This is my favorite quote so far. I made it so everyone can see it. It keeps me going and I'm now going to try harder to NOT procrastinate with achieving these dreams of mines so thank you REV RUN!!

Last day of school.

Awh I'm going to miss everyone!! <3

Oh my gosh this is crazy!!

http://globalgrind.com/content/726830/KILLING-ANIMALS-IS-FING-WRONGITS-THAT-SIMPLE/



PLEASE WATCH THIS!!!
OH EM GEE!! IT'S SAD.

Random Questions #1

7 Random Questions...

1- Would you rather be/have an Independent woman or a housewife?

2- Would you date someone who already has kids?

3- Is lying easier than the truth sometimes?

4- Do you think women can do anything men can?

5- Is there a such thing as a 'man' sport?

6- Is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time?

7- Does time/life pass by too fast or too slow?

Hmmm...What do you think?
Leave me comments!!

These same questions are on my myspace && twitter. check them out.

twitter.com/love_my_music

myspace...I forgotmy url?? lol just search -Akialah Ansar- in names

5-25-05

I'm procrastinating with new moon.
I love my new phone.
superman is my wallpaper.
5-21-09 was supposed to be the best day ever.
It turned out NOT so great.
I'd do anything for my best friends.
today's agenda:
washing.
mall.
homework.
no school today.
can't wait for the drama to come tomorrow =P
preparing for my first screenplay.
really excited about that.
I admire John Singleton's work.
I hate my hair today.
didn't come out how I wanted it.
I need music.
I need a good poem.

5-17-09

I decided that all of my blogs are going to start off with a picture and it's going to be a list
unless it's a poem.
or any of my other writings.
it is so HOT.
Orlando Magic is going to the next round.!
updating high profile myspace.
still reading new moon.
coming to theaters 11-20-09
re-write sci-fi story tonight.
i finally have a new phone.
&& i can get twitter updates.
i want to help someone with a music video.
can't wait till video production tomorrow.
ohhshoot.
i need to do my extra credit.
and my regular homework.
well this won't be too long.
that's all for now. =) <3

Get to know me

This is me like on a daily basis. [unless I have an attitude=\]
I'm really goofy.
Really concieted.
At times I care for others more than I care for myself.
Love chocolate past death.
And music.
And poetry.
Love twilight to the fullest.
Starting new moon tomorrow [5-14-09].
I think really wierd.
I'm concited.
I love taking pictures.
Attend SanLoenzo High.
At the moment I'm not too happy about that.
Freshman.
Love long hair.
Have short hair.
Live with mom and little brother.
Have the weakest phone ever.
I write down my bad dreams in a notebook.
I have 3 best friends.
"tweety" is my go-to guy.
I don't do well with relationships.
I'm insecure at times.
I try to be independent.
I get irritated easily.
I want to go to USC.
My favorite numbers are 5 & 21.
My favorite color is green.
My birthday is September 21st.
Monkeys are my favorite animals.
And snakes.
I really want a puppy.
One that like never grows.
That's all for now... Until next time.